It's Okay to Not Be Okay
I recently had an experience to where I thought I was mentally okay with a decision I had to make but come to find out I wasn’t. Sometimes in life we don’t give ourselves the capacity to fully feel a situation. I personally thought that I was okay with delaying it but once I actually started to physically speak on it, those feelings I didn’t realize where there came to surface.
What I had to come to understand was that even though I didn’t say my emotions towards the situation out loud, they were still in fact there. Speaking for myself of being a wife and mother I frequently get wrapped up in my everyday life that I regularly don’t give myself time in some aspects. If I be truly transparent, I often try to tackle that never ending to- do list. Most times when I’m completing one task, my brain is already thinking about the next thing that needs to be done. I know its probably not healthy, but I’m pretty sure someone can relate.
Some great advice I received in which I’m truly grateful for was from my mother. In nutshell she basically told me to give myself time to mourn the situation and talk to God concerning my disappointment. Her advice opened my eyes to a bigger revelation. It is truly okay to not be okay. I have to give myself time to truly feel the situation. In those feelings were true disappointment, sadness and a lot of tears. Even through all of this I know that God’s plan for my life is far greater than what I can even possibly imagine. Also realizing that everything happens for a reason. This is yet another situation where I’m learning to fully trust and lean not to my own understanding.
“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding” Proverbs 3:5 KJV
All in all, I hope that your takeaway from this is that it is perfectly okay with allowing yourself to truly FEEL in situations. Just because you try to consume yourself in everyday life doesn’t make those feelings go away. Be honest with yourself and be honest with God because he wants to hear you and is actually waiting in expectation for you. Life will not always be easy but our father in heaven is right there with us. Be encouraged my brothers and sisters and let the peace of God be with you.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who [have been called according to his purpose” Romans 8:28 KJV
“Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken” Psalm 55:22. NIV